In just one glimpse everything change, but I can still remember how everything started...
It was a cold spring morning, The weather was beautiful and the sun promised a perfect day. I was sitting in one of the bench located in the school garden, waiting for my first class to start. While watching the birds soaring up in the blue sky, I heard a music that captivates my attention. Canon in D major, whoever is playing must be a great violinist. Hearing that fantasizing melody caught me in a black serenade, it's like the clock is ticking reversely and I traveled back in late 17 century baroque era and hearing Johann Pachelbel playing his masterpiece. I followed where the music came from, and I found her.
Underneath the old oak tree, while the wind is blowing and some of the leaves are falling, I saw a lady. Her hair was a rich shade of Mahogany, It flowed in waves to adorn her glowing porcelain like skin. Wearing a white flowing dress while playing her violin gently, you could picture her as a perfection. It is almost like a dream, the most beautiful scenery I see.
"An angel" I whispered to the cold wind.
I guess fate brought me here in North Carolina to meet Amanda Collins a senior student here in Forks High School the new school I'm working. I originally grew up in San Francisco, well California is a great place to live. But back when I was in my college, I have to move in Manhattan New York City and live alone in a dorm because Julliard is a Billion miles away from home.
"and that is all for today class dismissed" as I watch my student go one by one , I noticed that Amanda is still sitting in her chair, until we are the only one left in the music room.
"Yes Ms,Collins can I help you?" I said. Like she is waiting for me to ask her that question.
"Uhmm.. Mr, Miller..." you can see her tense face I smiled to make her feel comfortable.
"You are a fresh graduate from Julliard right? I was thinking if you could be my music mentor, look I'm aiming to go to Julliard in college"
I laughed hardly leaving a blank expression to her face and deep inside her mind I guess she is thinking 'Hell what is wrong with this man? is he insane'. I stop laughing and stared at her deep perfection.
"Well violin is not my forte young Lady"
"But judging from what I heard earlier, you don't need to have a music mentor just by your talent , Julliard will surely accept you. But if you want to improve more as a music major, I'm willing to help you."
"really? Oh God, you are a blessing Mr. Miller" I can't describe how happy she was that day, I shook off my head and laughs.I can't believe I fall in love with my student"
Everyday after class Amanda would go to music room and plays her violin while I'm sitting in a corner of the room quietly watching her, and after I will tell her my comments, she will not go home until I praised her and tell that she plays the piece perfectly. Sometimes when the oh so called music training of ours finish late, I ask her to have a dinner with me and I will drive her home. That is our daily routine.
I can't deny that I fall more deeply in love with her in this passed few months we spend together. I wanted her even more, I wanted her in the bluntest way. I want her lips,I want her hands,I want her arms. I want her to infinity to the millionth degree, no amount of water could douse the fire I had in me for her.
Amanda laughs while telling me a story about her little brother,it seems like she and her brother get along well.We are sitting in the hood of my ebony XTS sedan.
The vast expanse of inky blackness darkened as the night went on,the sun rays had long disappeared over the horizon to be replaced with thousands of stars under the lake of Fontana.
"Amanda". she looked at me the moment I called her name, I slowly lean.upon and kiss her soft sweet lips. For a few seconds my world stopped for a moment it seems like eternity or perhaps just a second of two in reality.
"Sor..." I was about to apologize but she pulled me back and continue to kiss me. The boundary beyond the line melted the moment our soul unites, Her lips tasted like forbidden fruit. I wasn't supposed to reach in, but i did. Then I discovered a place i'd never been, A place where only the two of us could go-- where darkness and light exist in a tormented battle of sin.
like the beautiful pharaoh of Egypt Cleopatra and Mark Anthony of Roman Empire we commit a sin for this forbidden love, a modern Romeo and Juliet perhaps. After the kiss I and Amanda share, she confess me the close closet feelings she have towards me.
But destiny is not in our hands, we can't control the things to make it exactly what we like. I thought it was all perfect until the most heart breaking nightmare happened.
After Amanda got the letter of acception from Julliard, the news about the two of us dating spread all over the campus.The deans already talked to me and i told him I'm ready to pass my resignation letter, I choose Amanda over everything.
But Amanda suffered from anxiety and depression the campus thinks that she is a slut because she flirts with her own professor.
"Noah, I think we should stop this" she told me while tears streams down her beautiful eyes
"Hey, Amanda look at me. We will get over this" I cress her cheeks and wipe those tears, but she didn't listened. She shook her head and run. I followed her but its too late.
A cacophony of sounds hit Amanda like a tidal wave. The crunching of metal, the tinkling of glass as it shattered. I screamed as i called out her name. As her vision faded ,Amanda caught a glimpse of me before everything went dark. The next thing I knew, I was carrying Amanda inside the emergency room.
Loving Amanda taught me one thing 'Love is sacrifice' and that is for sure, you are willing to do anything and give up everything even if it takes your own happiness. In just a short period of time she became the music instrument I dreamed to have the masterpiece I longed to play.
It's almost been a month since that car accident happened and it puts Amanda in coma, and tomorrow is the day that we must decide if we will take away her life support and give her a peaceful rest.
"Hey Amanda can you hear me?" My voice cracks with emotion I felt the wet hot tears fill up my eyes as my throat closed tight, the tears split over and flowed down my face like a river escaping a dam. Now I realize that dying is easy and living is hard, watching her at situation like this makes me tell God that 'I wish I was the one laying in the bed fighting for my life instead of her.
"Please stay... If you stay I'll do whatever you want. If you want me to go away, I will. Just please hear me now Amanda, I will let you go if you stay."
and I thought I was only dreaming when I saw Amanda eyes opened...
